trauma is a scary thing

You think it’s gone,

but then you find it lingering

where the nails meet skin

the sharp things live

where the speedometer runs high.

when the loud sounds ring.






It’s Time For a Watershed of Grace.

Amazing grace, how sweet the sound,
that saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I’m found,
was blind, but now I see.
By Curology, @curology
Photographed by Anthony B Geathers, @anthonybgeathers
Photographed by Anthony B Geathers, @anthonybgeathers

We can say this for what it is. It is, and I say this with a little trepidation, but with greater hope a national civil rights movement. Friends, brothers, sisters, amigos, amis, 친구들, peers– you will either take part in this or not. It’s an invitation.

No judgement, just love.

I hope you’ll consider joining this powerful momentum and flood in the fight for justice and systematic reform.

Incredibly moving and powerful chat (+ the tiniest bit of preaching) from Hillsong East Coast that I watched last night about racial justice, George Floyd, the history of complicity and silence in the church as the whole body, and how we as America [+ all humanity] ought to be moved and moving in regards to black racism, all racism (black racism, white racism, asian, etc)

Exodus 13:3 Then Moses said to the people, “Commemorate this day, the day you came out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery, because the Lord brought you out of it with a mighty hand.


A Prayer for George Floyd’s death, the protests, the racial, social, and economic unrest in America

A prayer for the racial turmoil and general unrest in our world:

My God, I pray for a change of heart, an absolute 180º, a world that wakes up for the plight of our Black American brothers and sisters.

Mon seigneur, je prie pour un changement du coeur, un revirement absolu, un monde qui se reveille à la situation déplorable de nos soeurs et frères noire américaine.

하나님, 이 세계에 모든 아픔을 감싸주세요, 정부에게 보호를 못받는 제 흑인 형제들과 자매들을 대신 하나님이 보호해 주세요. 온 세상의 완악한 마음을 가진 인류들… 그들의 마음을 재발 변화시켜주세요.

예수님 이름으로 기도합니다.

Lament, grieve, feel disappointment. Then turn to hope. We must continue to breathe [fresh air] so we can help others to breathe who cannot.//

“new every morning”



This was my earlier prayer of disappointment, fear, and help:

Dear God,

In this season of crazy grief, pain, anger, lament, fear, anxiety, and tension, I remain steadfast and faithful in your promises. I will stand on the faith of this firm foundation, the firm foundation I believe my community hit hard by the Coronavirus have access to, and the firm foundation my Black American brothers and sisters stand on too.

I pray to a God that I believe can do the things I cannot do, that for us as humankind seem so insurmountable.


“I will crush every disappointment

turn all of my fear into praise,

I will crush every disappointment and break every chain”

Anything is Possible by Bethel Worship ft. Dante Bowe

Morning Reflection: Nearsighted when it comes to looking into the future

There’s a model (originally economics) called hyperbolic discounting, which speaks to the human tendency of choosing a reward now over wanting the greater reward that will happen later. In liberal application, this law can allude to our relative inability to see beyond the seeable, comprehensible distance over the things up close: what is happening or might happen in the immediate future or present. I believe this rings true for the scenario we find ourselves in in the midst of the coronavirus pandemic.

The pain, the discomfort, and the anxieties of the circumstances we find ourselves in are absolutely real. But, we (I) can choose to see beyond for what could happen that could be greater and more meaningful in magnitude over the mess in the immediate– see the good being written even now.

The motifs and the arc defining this story remain to be set in stone. We don’t know what lies ahead for us. We don’t know what the larger picture will be. I’m not referring to the next 2 or 3 years. I’m talking about the next 10, 20, and 30 years.

We must press on in hope, thinking and choosing to look to more hopeful outcomes– to where the real story might be. And in the meantime, be present and do as as much as we can for our family, our friends, and our people.

Some quotes from my journal that I’ve leaving for added contemplation:

“You cannot draw on the future. Impossible to get into debt! You can only waste the passing moment. You cannot waste tomorrow, it is kept from you.
You have to live on this 24 hours of time. Out of it you have to spin health, pleasure, money, content, respect and the evolution of your immortal soul. It’s right use…is a matter of the highest urgency.”
– Arnold Bennett
“We become, neurologically, what we think.”
– Nicholas Carr