Morning Meditation: Examining Success, Failure, and What it Means to Live Skillfully

Fact: God demands, no, requires excellence – OUI!

Examination: Does playing skillfully = success with my desired goals, milestones, specific aims? – NON! Pas nécessairement.

Self-examination: Do I evaluate outcomes as successes or failures through the world’s eyes, or God’s eyes? – TO BE DETERMINED! Continue reading Morning Meditation: Examining Success, Failure, and What it Means to Live Skillfully

Some Values I Strive to Live By at Work

My values for work and my work ethic have been influenced by many, Ernest Hemingway on the attractiveness and persuasiveness of brevity; Ray Dalio on embracing the natural bents, strengths, and weaknesses of others, Shane Parrish on the many mental models I could employ to make smarter decisions, and Marcus Aurelius’ father on how to treat your co-workers, to name a few. Continue reading Some Values I Strive to Live By at Work

A Prayer for George Floyd’s death, the protests, the racial, social, and economic unrest in America

My God, I pray for a change of heart, an absolute 180, a world that wakes up for the flight of our black American brothers and sisters.

Mon seigneur, je prie pour un changement du coeur, un revirement absolu, un monde qui se reveille a la situation déplorable de nos soeurs et frères noire américaine. 

하나님, 이 세계에 모든 아픔을 감싸해주세요, 정부에게 보호를 못받는 제 흑인 형제들과 자매들을 대신 하나님이 보호주세요. 온 세상의 완악한 마음을 가진 인류들… 그들의 마음을 재발 변화시켜주세요.

예수의 이름으로 기도합니다. Continue reading A Prayer for George Floyd’s death, the protests, the racial, social, and economic unrest in America

Reflecting on My Life with Christina Baker Kline’s a piece of the world and Andrew Wyeth’s Christina’s World

A poem by Emily Dickinson, emorable quotes from Christina Baker Kline book, and personal reflections with Andrew Wyeth’s painting, Christina’s World Continue reading Reflecting on My Life with Christina Baker Kline’s a piece of the world and Andrew Wyeth’s Christina’s World

Morning Reflections_Nearsighted when it comes to looking into the future

I woke up today feeling things and the flux of everything going on in our world and in my life today a little more strongly:

All the heaviness

Concerned about parents, family and friends’ families that I cannot check on personally

Missing my younger sister and wondering if she’s doing alright day to day with just her roommate…. Continue reading Morning Reflections_Nearsighted when it comes to looking into the future

On Respecting Authority or Differences in Opinions and Considering the Harm Done If We Choose Otherwise

What does it mean to really respect instituted authority, respect entities, and respect individuals despite encountering drastically differing opinions, values, or personalities?
What does it mean for our mental and emotional states when we choose to do the opposite? Continue reading On Respecting Authority or Differences in Opinions and Considering the Harm Done If We Choose Otherwise

Grateful For_My Light, My Joy

  Today, I am grateful for the abundance of love that God has showered onto my life through the people he brought into it. I know I am loved by God and that is enough, but as a young, and often childlike woman, being blessed with such beautiful humans to walk with me in life during the good and the bad days is something I wake up grateful for every day. I am grateful for how strong of a bond my sisters and I have cultivated, through effort, through grace, and through compassion. I am grateful for the times they … Continue reading Grateful For_My Light, My Joy

A Bit of Morning Meditations, February 18, 2020

If you cannot please everyone with your actions and your art, you should satisfy a few. To please many is dangerous. – Gustav Klimt While I agree with and am inspired by the truth in this, I also feel one can fall into the falsity of the opposite: “Because you can’t please or exist in harmony with everyone, be YOU! That is where true happiness and fulfillment lies!” In this opposite, there lies too an extreme version of self-centeredness, and I can see the ramifications of this in people’s mentalities, especially of those of my generation, when we just *swing* … Continue reading A Bit of Morning Meditations, February 18, 2020

Morning Meditation: Run

Don’t seek out recognition unless that in itself is a Good and intentional means, and for a better and Good end. Be humble and lead with your head down and keep running. Keep doing the good things. Keep striking out the bad things. The bad things will keep coming and entering your life, but you are resilient, you are strong, and you are clear-eyed. Did I tell you you are resilient, you are strong, and you are clear-eyed? You got this. A borrowed prayer: “May our souls have never ending peace that passes all understanding may our hearts long for … Continue reading Morning Meditation: Run

Grateful For_Sister

Grateful for my sister and specifically the boundless gift of thoughtfulness she possesses. She knows I like figs And one day [after yet another long, hard day of work, I found a mysterious box that was super heavy waiting at my door. I stood there for a while before turning to unlock the door because I was trying to figure out what I forgot that I ordered. This is what I found: Photo looks like I uncovered dung, but this is actually a photo of treasure. a 10lb treasure, to be exact: “All that is gold does not glitter.” Continue reading Grateful For_Sister

A Case for Less Burgers: How a Carnivorous Person Like Me Is Living With a More Holistically Conscious Diet

Most of my friends will know how much I love burgers. A fundamental component of a good burger is a strong, awesomely seasoned and well packed & proportioned patty. I prefer mine thick over thin 🙂 The Spotted Pig over Shake Shack. Beef over lamb. Over the past 6 months, I experimented with drastically reducing my red meat intake primarily out of two reasons: 1) to take better care of my physical health and 2) to be more environmentally conscious and responsible in my daily living and actions. As a civilization, I think a recurring weak point of our peoples … Continue reading A Case for Less Burgers: How a Carnivorous Person Like Me Is Living With a More Holistically Conscious Diet

love letters to a younger self

love letters to a younger self // if i could travel time, i’d tell my younger self how much she was loved. how perfect she is how everything will be okay how much she’ll laugh and smile how she’ll fall in love over and over again how she’ll be surrounded by people that make her grin uncontrollably how everything will look beautiful to her again how she’ll come to love her body how she’ll come to love touch how she’ll come to love her mind how she’ll come to love others how she will become love. Continue reading love letters to a younger self

Taking Inspiration From The Life of Marcus Aurelius’ Father

I want to be “most ready to give way without envy to those who possessed any particular faculty, such as that of eloquence or knowledge…, and he gave them his help, that each might enjoy reputation” I want to work better to be someone ” who looked to what ought to be done, not the reputation which is got by [man’s] acts.” – Marcus Aurelius Continue reading Taking Inspiration From The Life of Marcus Aurelius’ Father

What I Want at 27

The older I get, the more I realize all I really want more of from life is good *health* (wellbeing/wellness) for my family, my self, my friends, and my people [the universe]. Less, the accolades Less, the hotness Less, the cool spots. Less, the performance records Less, the bells and whistles. … and I just want to keep learning to understand what this unfolding desire means for me. In these little moments of clarity, I see my desire for the remaining years of my life on this Earth in its purity. I’m far away from this pristine picture, but I’m … Continue reading What I Want at 27

Having Been Poor

One positive side effect of having been poor, is that you end up pretty much grateful for all the good fortune that follows after. It doesn’t matter if it’s the daily occurrence following that takes the form of a normal meal, or a meal at the top restaurant in the world. You are grateful for it all. You are also marginally affected by the grandeur of it all. For fortune is fortune, and hopefully in the midst of your trials and your passing through, you found that happiness, lasting happiness, springs from somewhere else. This applies to other manifestations of … Continue reading Having Been Poor

Things I Started Doing and Things I Stopped Doing in 2019.

2019 is the year I started making my bed every day, not bringing junk [food] to my bed, flossing every day, exercising regularly, saying no more consistently to relationships and activities that are foolish or unhealthy for me, saying yes to healing over bitterness in relationships, choosing more whole foods over dank foods, setting boundaries with things, acquaintances, friends, and loved ones, and keeping regular lists of items and things I’m grateful for at top of mind. 2019 was also the year I let go of a life dream that was very important to me, I stopped letting the status … Continue reading Things I Started Doing and Things I Stopped Doing in 2019.

“I have always had a quarrel with this country not only about race, but about the standards by which it appears to live.” – James Baldwin

  Golden Retriever: “I can’t deal with stupid people at work” Lamb: “Practice mercy, compassion. I’ve lately been thinking Our work is a chance for us to practice becoming people who are kind, even when people don’t deserve it And every time we make a choice when it’s really darn hard to show mercy and patience We change And it will affect you when you stand before Christ And also who you are as a wife/a husband A mother/ a father A grandmother/ a grandfather A friend And aunt/ uncle I’m saying this not particularly towards you because I’ve been … Continue reading “I have always had a quarrel with this country not only about race, but about the standards by which it appears to live.” – James Baldwin

Prayer of Gratitude

“you silence the boast of sin and grave”   God, I thank you for saving me. over and over and over again.   That despite immense suffering, I have to come to know great joy:   My eyes gouged out  My heart pierced through All was dark inside But you pulled me through You pulled me through Out of the darkness into your glorious light God how can it be This life that’s changed for me.    We give thanks to you, O God;     we give thanks, for your name is near. We[a] recount your wondrous deeds. – Psalm 75 Continue reading Prayer of Gratitude