All my parts.
The rain might keep falling
The weather unchanging
but still my soul will keep on singing of your promises to me
You Say// you delight in me
that there light green pastures and a bounty of joy everlasting waiting at a table for me.
Surely goodness will follow, even as this rain continues to fall
And so I will keep on singing//
I’ll keep on singing of your goodness, your goodness, your goodness….
Until this rain transforms, these dry bones rise,
I will keep on singing of your goodness to me
2019 has been a year: My first brand, ATEM, turned 1 year old, our cosmetics R&D startup is going into our 3rd year, and I turned 27.
In this time and despite my work taking most of my attention on my days (excluding Sabbath, Sundays!), I developed some new habits that have supported my betterment.
1. I started exercising regularly: 3 to 5 times a week!
Result: Exponentially increased physical health, increased mental fortitude (ie. focus), and emotional wellbeing
2. I started flossing daily, after setting up my daily habit tracker in July, 2019: I now floss every day without needing a reminder or a checklist to tell me I have to!
Result: Increased self-control: A developed appreciation for discipline and keeping to some “orders” of the day
3. I started regularly writing down things I am grateful for, or allocating a protected time to visually go down the the things I am grateful for.
Result: Increased mental and emotional wellbeing – rewiring the “space” for automatic negative thoughts to come in to a space for positive, gratitude filled thoughts.
4. I started making my bed more regularly: This is a habit to solidify in 2020 as I still do not keep to the habit.
Result: Increased self-control: A developed appreciation for discipline and keeping to some “orders” of the day
5. I started being more careful and controlled about the things I utter about myself or my life: Saying less “I can’t,” or “I’m not,” and more “I hope,” “I can,” and “I believe.” I hope to continue this habit into this year, and applying this principle as I speak of and to others as well.
Result: Increased mental and emotional wellbeing – rewiring the “space” for automatic negative thoughts to come in to a space for positive, gratitude filled thoughts. As Carl Lentz one said, “change your mind, change your life.”
A habit I would like to change completely in 2020 is not letting my moods dictate my actions as much, particularly in the physical with my waking and sleeping times. I had experienced a season of mild depression, and because of this, it was difficult to get out of bed at times I wanted to on a daily basis over a span of 2 some months. I felt like I was chained to my bed, and sometime woke up feeling like 2 tons of cement were lying atop me and I’d go to sleep again because it felt like too much of a struggle to try to fight it. During this time, what I lost in time/productivity, I made up for, but this was not great for my overall health. This year, for my wellbeing, I would like to commit to regularly sleeping a number of hours per day, and waking up consistently at an earlier hour of the day. I write these down, as writing my intentions down will incentivize me to action.
You Watch Me
Just Watch Me
I’m Calling
Haven’t You Heard the Word of My Body
There’s Nowhere to Hide from the Ghost In My Mind
I Believe All Will Be Forgiven
“Tears roll down my cheeks when I hear people say they want to kill themselves, because I’ve been there. Empathy is powerful. It enables us to comfort others and know how to pray for them.
As I was healing from a season of deep depression and anxiety, I got to sit next to a young woman who was in the thick of it. I listened. I offered my story. Tears streamed down her face as she whispered a thousand me-toos. I put my arm around this woman and prayed for the things I, myself, had needed just a few months before.
Ultimately, God will always use us to bring hope to others who are hurting because we’ve been where they are and made it to the other side.” – Mary Keith
“It’s not a character defect, a spiritual disorder or an emotional dysfunction. And chief of all, it’s not a choice. Asking someone to “try” not being depressed is tantamount to asking someone who’s been shot to try and stop bleeding. Such an attitude can dangerously appear in the Church as, “if only you had enough faith.”
Cue the record scratch for any Christian regarding matters of healing. Having faith in God’s ability to heal is hugely important, and personal faith can help ease depression. But to deny medical or psychiatric treatment to someone suffering from mental illness is really no different than denying them to someone with a physical illness. The difference between the two is that the former is invisible.
Speaking of the invisible, some faith traditions are quick to suggest demonic attack as the cause for depression. While I’m convinced that there’s definitely a spiritual element—the enemy will exploit any weakness—medical science holds that major depressive disorder is real and the causes are manifold.” – Brandon W. Peach
I want to be “most ready to give way without envy to those who possessed any particular faculty, such as that of eloquence or knowledge…, and he gave them his help, that each might enjoy reputation”
I want to work better to be someone ” who looked to what ought to be done, not the reputation which is got by [man’s] acts.” – Marcus Aurelius
