What I Am Grateful For in 2020

I am grateful for the rich relationships and conversations I have with my mother, my father, my older sister, and my younger sister.

I’m grateful for the lively debates, learning, and love between Joanne and I, sprung from the commonality of being passionate Christians, the difference of coming from two different denominations (Protestantism and Catholicism) and striving to understand and reconcile theological differences.

I am grateful for being awakened to more of my likes and dislikes, what I can tolerate, and my non-negotiables.

I am grateful for the new depths my existing friendships with my friends and family members have reached, and being in possession of a home that I could open up to others- grateful for the intimate dinners, suppers, drinks, cookings, shared thinking, warmth and merriness that were plentiful in number.

I am grateful for the new friendships and encouraging peerhoods I made this year.

It’s been a little over a year since I’ve had my last seizure. I am grateful for incredible health.

I am grateful for a year in which a great % of my actions and words were in alignment with my principles and values.

I’m grateful for E.E. Cumming’s note from A Miscellany Revised on having the courage to be ourself:

“A poet is somebody who feels, and who expresses his feelings through words.
This may sound easy. It isn’t.
A lot of people think or believe or know they feel — but that’s thinking or believing or knowing; not feeling. And poetry is feeling — not knowing or believing or thinking.
Almost anybody can learn to think or believe or know, but not a single human being can be taught to feel. Why? Because whenever you think or you believe or you know, you’re a lot of other people: but the moment you feel, you’re nobody-but-yourself.
To be nobody-but-yourself — in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else — means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.
As for expressing nobody-but-yourself in words, that means working just a little harder than anybody who isn’t a poet can possibly imagine. Why? Because nothing is quite as easy as using words like somebody else. We all of us do exactly this nearly all of the time — and whenever we do it, we’re not poets.
If, at the end of your first ten or fifteen years of fighting and working and feeling, you find you’ve written one line of one poem, you’ll be very lucky indeed.
And so my advice to all young people who wish to become poets is: do something easy, like learning how to blow up the world — unless you’re not only willing, but glad, to feel and work and fight till you die.
Does that sound dismal? It isn’t.
It’s the most wonderful life on earth.
Or so I feel.”

I’m grateful and feel really lucky that none of my family members nor my closest friends caught the corona virus.

I’m grateful for the boundaries I made and kept with people and behaviors.

Despite the sometimes insurmountable challenges and stress I encountered as an entrepreneur and working nearly without pause across 2 opposite timezones, I’m grateful for the fact that I spent and ended 2020 with remarkable, good mental health. We are stronger than we think.

I’m grateful for marriage between my sister Jocelyn and her now husband. I’m really grateful for my older sister and older brother, for all that they are, do, and have become this past year.

I’m grateful for the innumerable amount of times they’ve cooked delicious pastries, snacks, and dinners for me. The tummy was blessed in 2020!

I’m grateful for all the meals I shared with my closest friends and family at home.

I am grateful for having grown in compassion as well as for the grace I showed myself after the moments I did not extend compassion or acted in a way I was ashamed of later.

I am grateful that I had my back a lot of moments this year.

Although there were hardships in personal and career, I am grateful nonetheless for the experiences; I know and believe enough now that I’ll feel really grateful for every unexpected outcome, swerve, and failure as time goes by.

I’m grateful for God showing me that I’ve grown stronger and wiser in him: that there were moments in which I chose to hope when it was easy to stay in disillusionment, to listen instead of jumping in excitement or interrupting, and to think before I spoke and acted.

I’m grateful for the continued life of S +V study group!

Work

I am grateful for being reminded that I’m not good at everything.

I’m grateful for getting really comfortable with my strengths and skills.

I am grateful for the chance and challenge to be a GOOD, supportive, inspiring, open-minded, challenging, and competent manager and boss to others.

I am grateful I got to mentor more this year.

I am grateful for my older mentors, my younger friends who’ve become my mentors in their fields of work, peers who have become my friends, and the family & friends who have all stepped in at one point or another to help me become a better thinker, innovator, professional, leader, and collaborator.

Faith

I am grateful for getting closer to God.

I am grateful for re-awakening in me a desire to become closer to specifically Jesus in the Trinity.

I am grateful for having a front and center seat to Joanne’s journey converting to Catholicism this past Spring.

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